the time has come to give up now
but i find it hard to let go
so empty me
of all these things
that keep me from seeing you
come into this place
and drench me in you
consume me with desire
i want to know you more
recently, God has been teaching me how to let go of things that still have me bound and keep me from going deeper with him. it's a challenging thing, allowing God to truly have control of every area of my life, but it's also exciting! i know that God wants to move in powerful ways and use me for his glory... so that's where i'm at right now. :)
i've also been praying a lot about what i'm supposed to do after master's, and even though God hasn't filled me in on his plans yet, i do have some ideas...but i'll let y'all know when i'm a bit more sure :)
okay, where to begin... we'll start with valentine's day. us master's peeps got to deliver flowers for valentine's day as a fundraiser, and it was so good for me!!! i didn't really enjoy it, but it taught me how to drive a cargo van filled with vases of flowers in the back, in the dark and rain while reading directions driving downtown with all the one-way streets. um...it was kind of stressful, but i only had a few near-accident incidents, and only one major meltdown moment. :) besides that, though, i learned how to not panic when i'm lost and drive like i really am from california. how's that for life lessons??? :)
right now we are reading the five love languages for singles book, and it's super cheesy, but still really good!!! learning that everybody has a different set of love languages is pretty cool cuz it helps you know how to best treat that person with the kind of love that they need. i love all that psychology stuff!!! :) :)
this weekend should be really fun because the college group is going hiking on saturday and then having a BBQ---i'm really looking forward to that, and i'm sure i'll get some real good stories out of it...
we performed a human video on sunday to the song i can only imagine. it was awesome!!! we made the audience cry... :) i was a little girl (so of course i had pigtails in my hair) and i was crippled. my scene showed my dad putting me in bed and then me dreaming that i went to heaven and could jump around and walk... it was fun cuz me and "my dad" got to jump around on a mattress like little kids... and there's other scenes going on at the same time: a blind guy gets his sight restored, an old man sees his wife again in heaven, etc. and then the song ends with us back on earth still sleeping and it was all a dream. kind of sad, but also encouraging knowing that the troubles and hardships of this life will not follow us into heaven, but there we will be fully restored. yay!
so basically, i'm still completely loving it here, and i'm as determined as ever to continue going deeper with God. i found out the statistics for people staying close to God after master's are not so great, but i don't want to be the statistic. i want to, every day, grow closer to my Savior. he's the only thing that makes life worth living, and that fact is becoming more and more real to me all the time.
well, that's all for now...but hopefully i'll be able to update this again really soon!!! i miss you, family and friends!!! :) :)
