hello everyone!! this might be the last time i get to blog for quite a while because we have a lot of traveling coming up... tomorrow night or early thursday morning we leave for las vegas to do a fundraiser for microsoft---i think we are just registration people, but it should be really fun!!! we get home next tuesday night and then we leave the very next morning for bakersfield to do a service. from there we go straight to fresno! we get home from all of our travels on the 27th....
so, God's continuing to work out some really good stuff in me, and even though it's not all easy, i'm really learning a lot! right now i'm learning about confidence and how, it's not about being confident in myself, but it's about placing every ounce of my confidence in Christ. i want to be completely submitted and entirely dependent on him.
i can't do this on my own
i've tried before and failed
i need to taste your sweet freedom
i need you here...with me
i need you to fall down
rain on my face
reign in this place
set me free
rescue me
and hold on tightly
hold on---hold on to me
tonight, for example, i'm on the worship team and, for the first time, i'm playing the keyboard and singing---and my microphone and the keyboard are actually turned up loud enough to where you can hear it!!!! :0
yes, i'm nervous, but i'm realizing that God does not call the equipped--he equips the called. i just have to remember how amazing God is and that i am there to worship him alone. nobody to impress. nobody's judging. and even if they were, God's opinion is all that matters and he just wants me to make a joyful noise! :)
oh! i'm also taking a personality class right now and it is so much fun!!! i'm learning a lot about myself and other people... wanna know my strengths and weaknesses according to the test??? :)
STRENGTHS:
analytical
peaceful
submissive
considerate
refreshing
satisfied
patient
scheduled
optimistic
friendly
diplomatic
cheerful
idealistic
deep
mediator
tolerant
listener
chartmaker
pleasant
behaved
The Bad Stuff... :)
bashful
unforgiving
reticent
fearful
insecure
unpredictable
hard to please
permissive
alienated
nonchalant
worrier
timid
doubtful
introvert
manipulative
skeptical
loner
suspicious
reluctant
critical
now, obviously, some of those are a little extreme, but for the most part i think the test was pretty accurate. the thing to do now is try to branch out--not just settle and live up to everything the list says about me, but to try to stretch out of my little comfort bubble. it is funny, though, when i realize i'm doing something and it's totally cookie-cutter to my personality.
okay, so lastly i'll recommend some amazing songs:
The love of God---jeff deyo
open up the sky---deluge
lovesong---desperation band
hear us from heaven---jared anderson
be near---shane and shane
if you say go---vineyard
forever holy---the glorious unseen
sovereign God---derek loux
those are the newest songs on my ipod and they are amazing!!!! anyways, i pray that today would be a day that you encounter the love of God like never before--that you see him so obviously in the little moments of your day that you desire to know him more.
"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." -jeremiah 29:13
~God is not hiding. when you seek him with all your heart, he is found where he always is...right beside you. :)
